It’s been a very long time since I have written in here. Since, we have moved to GA, bought a house, bought a dog, getting ready to move into our new house, started new job-hubby, and started classes. Somewhere in there I have managed to get myself EXTREMELY confused about God. I am at the point that I do not know where I stand on the existence of God, that Church is not really my thing, and get really pissed off when people send me those lovely little “have you been saved — are you going to hell” messaged on FB or I get pretty irate when my MOTHER starts in on me about going to church and how it is my responsibility to take my daughter. NO CRAP. *SIGH*
Is it because I haven’t been to church in such a long time or the fact that I am educated-Sociology/Anthropology can really mess a girl up? Is it the fact that I am being told to get back in tune with the G man and because of that I am pushing away? Sadly, the whole idea of G seems stupid if you look at all the scientific debunking of the mystical Bible. Religion is a societal thing that is used to give morals values hope, to explain away the unexplainable…. I catch myself praying and then just stop because I feel so stupid doing it. I don’t want to feel this way and don’t know why all the sudden I do. So if you look at it that way, the purpose in life is pretty empty. I mean what is the purpose if you are not to serve your fellow man and contribute to their betterment in some way? Everything we do is tied into another human being…. We teach history so that we can’t make the same mistakes or pay tribute to those that have been unjustly hurt, we teach literature and grammar so we can communicate, we teach math so that we can understand our society and frankly so we can tell each other how much something is/was….
Send me some good Karma, prayers, positive thoughts, whatever!! I need to get worked out……………
S


